Sunday, December 21, 2008

I WANT MY LIFE BACK.

I don't even know if I'll even keep tabs on this. But I really want to try to at least write some bullshit in this at LEAST once a month. For starters, I'm really going to focus on finding out who I am, and protecting myself from getting hurt. I just got out of a relationship where I gave my heart away to another boy who treated me badly. I love the wrong people, people who don't care as much as I do. I need to find a boy to appreciate me as much as I do him. I'm not looking for someone to "complete" me, just to share happiness with me. I want to give him the world, and I just want to be in his. I'm going to focus on friends and school since it's my last year until everyone moves. If a boy comes along, then of course I won't put up too much of a fight. But I'm really going to gain more self-respect, self-awareness and dignity then I already have. I don't need a person to complete me, I just need to find out who I am before I can fall in love with someone else. I am gaining ground to earning my independence. I can't wait for what the future is holding for me.
THIS IS MY ETERNAL HOPE.


2 comments:

  1. Everybody is looking for that person Brit, it's one of the main focuses of life. I really hope that somewhere along your path you can find somebody who is going to treat you right, take care of you, and make you happy.

    I'm looking for the same shit, minus the dood part. lol :)

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  2. I used to get anxiety knowing that this year is almost over, because I wanted to have a legitimate relationship in High School. I then realized I can't make this shit happen. It's going to eventually happen and the older I am, the more legitimate it will be.

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