I don't even know if I'll even keep tabs on this. But I really want to try to at least write some bullshit in this at LEAST once a month. For starters, I'm really going to focus on finding out who I am, and protecting myself from getting hurt. I just got out of a relationship where I gave my heart away to another boy who treated me badly. I love the wrong people, people who don't care as much as I do. I need to find a boy to appreciate me as much as I do him. I'm not looking for someone to "complete" me, just to share happiness with me. I want to give him the world, and I just want to be in his. I'm going to focus on friends and school since it's my last year until everyone moves. If a boy comes along, then of course I won't put up too much of a fight. But I'm really going to gain more self-respect, self-awareness and dignity then I already have. I don't need a person to complete me, I just need to find out who I am before I can fall in love with someone else. I am gaining ground to earning my independence. I can't wait for what the future is holding for me.
THIS IS MY ETERNAL HOPE.