I feel like I need to love less.
it makes me crazy.
Training myself not to care about being second best all the time.
it's all i've ever been anyways, and i'm not being emo or looking for pity or trying to sound sad, it's true. Only once was I equal, if not more.
I want to sleep forever and not go to work.
and if I should wake I hope its to a lit up world where my dreams have a fraction chance of coming true.
and in MA.
and on a comfier (...is that a word?) mattress.
and so that my eyes don't feel dried out.
and where my heart doesn't feel so heavy.
and where I'm relaxed and NOT THINKING ALL THE TIME ABOUT STUPID THINGS.
just plain not over thinking.